One of “those” days!!

Today is just one of those days, you know, one of “those” days. We all have them, am sure interspersed through the ins and out of our life. A day where nothing goes right, nothing feels right and nothing is, in fact right and we seem to have lost the plot and everything spells doom and failure.

On a day like this I wonder, is it in fact the world that has broken down or is it me who has collided with the  glacier in my mind and is now sinking like the Titanic. Sometimes we tend to, or maybe its just me, take an unpleasant thought or some minute detail in life and spin it into a vortex of worry. The starting point of all this anxiety may be trivial or vital, the worry could be warranted or utterly foolish but in that moment in time its relevance and connect with reality is of the least importance. It’s like my mother puts so aptly “tokri utha li hai tumne” in Hindi which literally means you are carrying a load full of worry.

Its true! That is exactly what I am doing and for all my words I could not convey it any better. It is a basket of thoughts that I have decided by my own free will to put in my head and watch it spiral out of control. I was strolling through a bookshop and I saw a book the title of which was “Don’t believe everything you think” and no one needs to read the whole  book to understand what the author is trying to say.

While in fact what’s truly happening is that, we are in the reality of our own making and everyone around us is just going on about their business the best they can with no intention of poking us. Nothing and no one is conspiring against us in this play manufactured by our own psyche. Soon you realize , if good sense prevails that “its not you, it’s me!”. Its me, who is bogged down by this basket that we have decided to carry and now perhaps its time to just take a deep breadth, find your balance, rein in your thoughts and maybe for our own sake just put it down.

Our lives are coloured in the positive or the negative by the loads we have decided to carry in life. One starts to look old when one feels old or look fat when one feels fat. Without being too prescriptive about how one should conduct oneself, for me personally it would seem that there is some validity in going through life with rose coloured glasses. In this world where everyone is trying to show each other up it’s almost an act of rebel to believe in yourself and try to be as buoyant as we possibly can, in our true selves and not let little anxieties weigh us down. Life, it seems would be much easier to manoeuvre with a bit of thickheadedness because as they say “for in much wisdom there is much sorrow”.